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whats happiness to you? [May. 7th, 2007|04:29 am]
the long pause while you come to your senses
[mood |sicksick]

lets see... i guess its been somewhere in the area of 2 and a half months since i updated this thing in any sort of coherent manner. so now, a brief rundown in list format of all of the things that i remember(and thus are important)

-got tickets to go see tool. 24 days. gotta have something to look forward to.
-worked on 4/20 again. not very good money. the stoners let me down.
-relearned a lot of things about people that i had gone blind to. i now very clearly remember why i keep many/most at arms length. physical pain doesn't bother me, but the emotional shit? yeah. people fucking suck
-went to a couple of regular season magic games
-then the magic went to the playoffs and got swept. much grief.
-rediscovered how excellent i am at basketball. yeah. apparently it doesn't matter how frequently i play or how in shape i am, i kick a lot of ass. something about being naturally athletic and having good eye/hand coordination?
-slowly weaning myself of the bad in my life. i'm going to leave it at that for the moment.
-working on developing good habits, such as cleaning up after the mess that i've made.
-discovered that i have $5000 spending limit on credit card. this is a bad thing. but i've got a lot of cool new shit.
-weeds is such a good show. fucking. amazing.
-spent a coupla weeks locked in my room hiding from some of the bad
-haven't picked up a book in 3 months now. not a good thing, but i think i'm going to skip reading until a week and a half before the new harry potter comes out. then i'm going to read the entire series back to back. and end it with the new one.
-liz and evan both have become shitty people. liz stopped answering/returning my calls 3 days after i told her i was done doing coke. see above where i mention relearning things about people. funny how i can put so much stock in a friendship that apparently was completely empty and meaningless. the price of caring. evan has decided that he should be a douchebag. once again, someone i thought i was close with, thought was a good person. also stopped answering my anything. then pissed me off on my birthday by not being man enough to even tell me he wasn't coming by. the initial invitation? "hey, want to come by and watch the magic game and drink a coupla keg beers with me on my birthday?" no answer. he was nice enough to text hunter and tell him he didn't want to hang out because he was watching the magic game. asshole.
-incidentally, got truly angry for the first, second, and third time of the last 4 years of my life within the last 2.5 months. the rest was good natured bitching while i pretended to be angry.
-had a birthday. fred bought me a keg, i spent 400 on bottles. it was a good time. ran into some old friends. really old friends. elementary school era friends. they just kinda randomly came by. it was kinda rad.
-i've gotten really into grilling. nothing like making fire then grilling a piece of meat on it. mmmmmmm. ribs on tuesday.
-will be getting a promotion shortly, as finally after 2.5 years i've managed to shake the reputation of "pothead slacker extraordinaire," which was entirely undeserved as i managed to do 70% of the driver working duties by myself on any given day of the work. soon as the payroll is in order i shall be getting a dollar raise and won't be asked to work anywhere nearly as hard. hot damn.
-saw type o negative with aaron. good show. the singer was wicked sick though, kept having to take breaks between songs to rehydrate.
-the day after the type o negative concert i became truly ill for the first time in the last year. still kinda sick from it, and its been a week.
-cut back on the drinking considerably.
-completely compromised my morals in favor of getting some good deals. thats right, i've started shopping at walmart.
-kinda coming to terms with me, reaching an understanding of myself, that in the past i thought i had, but has turned out to be incomplete. which probably means that i'm not quite there just yet but i'm working on it.
-and now i'm just focusing on fixing things. everything. my less desirable personality traits. my relationships with those who matter. developing both a spine and willpower. smiling and meaning it. getting a handle on my various addictions(lord do i wish i had never started smoking cigarettes). thinking coherently, logically, independantly, and thoroughly. being less naive. becoming healthier both physically and emotionally. understanding the how, rather than just the why. theres much work to be done.

and on that note, goodnight to one and all. until next time this is aleks, signing out.

nothing lasts forever but the earth and sky
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(no subject) [Feb. 25th, 2007|01:15 am]
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1) Full Name: Aleks
2) Age: 22
3) Sex: blessed with a penis
4) Cherry or Apple: apple
5) Single?: perpetually
6) Why is there no question here?: i saw a question mark!
7) What do you prefer "make love" or "have sex": theres a distinction
8) Are you a virgin?: nope
9) What is your favorite Holiday?: i don't really have a chance to celebrate most of them
10) Favorite Sports?: skateboarding/basketball
11) Does size really matter?: ask someone else... i've heard no complaints
12) Color?: black and red
13) Favorite Movies?: too many of them, not enough time... who am i kidding, i've got plenty of time im just lazy
14) What is better, summer or winter?: spring
15) Who is your best girl friend?: this little whore named liz who never calls me back or really does anything but use me...
16) Do you love or hate your family?: love them... they're all rad
17) Do you wear pajamas or sleep naked?: boxers
18) Candles or Incense?: incense
19) Car or Truck?: drivin a car now... but i miss my truck
20) Rap, Pop or Alternative Music?: Metal and real hip hop
21) Laugh or Cry at a funeral?: neither... i get the crying out of the way before i get there... no one gets to see that
22) Whats the pefect age for you? i miss being 10
22) Do you believe in chain letters?: i've not sent so many of them that theyve become a good excuse for how pooped on i feel most of the time
23) Do you sleep w/ stuffed animals?: no
24) Would you rather be pretty and poor or rich and ugly?: aleks and happy

25) What is the most pain you've ever felt?: the immense lonliness that comes with constant rejection and not having anyone in your life who truly understands you
26) Do you have a job? yup... and thats how its been since i was 14 other than this blissful 6 month period where i had no work or school, i just lived
27) Marlboro or Newport:? camel
29) McDonalds or Burger King: toxic hell
30) What are your nicknames?: im sure i've got a couple... call me "citizen dildo"
31) Impeach Clinton?: damn this is an old survey... lets impeach bush and put a new clinton in.
32) Whats the worst thing you've ever done?: i'd rather not talk about it
33) Obessions?: basketball
34) How often do you clean your room?: its been a hot minute
35) Do you know what a jigabo is?: its that spot between your balls and your asshole, right?
36) Favorite quote? *disclaimer- aleks and chris do not advocate "doing this." doing anything may result in bad things happening, including, but not limited to- death, bleeding, shattered skulls, severe illness, vomiting, loss of sleep, diminished sex drive, increased sex drive, inability to speak, loss of motor control, blindness, or permanent disfigurement. do this at your own risk, and remember, do things when you can, not when you can't.

37) What do you want to name your kids?: "get me a beer" and "go mow the lawn"
38) Hanson, "hot or not": i thought they were girls at first... i even fell into the trap of saying "that ones kinda hot" before i found out they were all dudes
39) Favorite food(s): scrambled eggs, ribs, hamburgers, and bacon
40) Is Vanilla Ice cool or does he still suck?: He's a straight thuggish type who just don't get no raspect from tha homies
41) Rather eat at home or out?: i like to cook
42) Favorite Cartoon?: family guy and beavis and butthead
43) Rather be a smurf or Scooby-Doo?: scooby-doo... duh
44) Tyra Banks or Mya?: tyra banks has been one of my celeb crushes since my balls dropped
45) Where are your peircings?: n/a
46) Drugs?: oh good lord
47) Jerry Springer or Ricki Lake?: nope
48) If you could be reincarnated what would you come back as? maybe in another life when we are both cats
49) Got any pets?: not anymore.. i miss my dog!
50) Brownies or Cupcake?: brownies
51) If you had 24 hours left to live, how would you spend it? i'd give in to horrible desperate unhappiness and only make it about 25 minutes before killing myself to say "i died on my own terms"
52) Cat or Dog?: dog... im allergic to cats
53) What's better, Bass or Guitar?: guitar
54) Is your writing messy or neat?: i dunno, its been a while
55) Where do you live?: the ghetto, apt #407
56) How many kids do you want?: 2... one to name "get me a beer" and one to name "go mow the lawn"
57) Habla Espanol?: no
58) Have you ever ran away?: briefly... it was doomed from the start, as when i left home i was just in my socks... it was ok though, i stole some shoes and wandered around until i got bored. then i went home
59) Does anyone owe you money?: coupla heads im sure
60) Are you happy or sad right now?: pissed at liz for leaving me hanging yet again
62) Hows school?: a fading memory
63) What do you think you'll die of?: stress
64) Worst smell in the world?: shattered dreams
65) Favorite Place to go?: rock springs or the beach
66) What do you want to be when you grow up?: fuck if i know
67) How many buddies on your buddy list?: uhhhh 70ish?
68) Do you go to church?: nope
69) Do you consider yourself a sex-fiend?: yup... thats why i fuck my hand like 3-5 times a day
70) What do you do when you're bored?: get drunk
71) Beavis or Butt-head?: beavis
72) Book or Magazine?: book
73) Book or Movie?: Movie
74) Ever seen a ghost?: no but i have been fucked with by a poltergeist
75) Do you believe in witchcraft?: mehh.... maybe
76) Do you sleep w/ music on?: no
77) King of the Hill or Simpsons? family guy
78) Abortion?: if you must
79)Do men suck?: the ones who like dudes i'm sure spend much time sucking
81) Do women suck?: im sure theres a couple out there somewhere who don't. if you find one will you let me know?
82)Mad TV or Mad Magazine?: Magazine
83)Steak or Salad?: steak... feed... me... beef
84)Craziest thing you've ever done?: you wouldn't believe me if i told you
85) Whats the band you hate the most?: nickleback
86) Worst TV show?: give me a list of reality shows
87)Have you ever been cheated on?: yup
88)Beer or Wine?: beer
89)If you could bring back one person from the dead who would you bring back? brandon
90) Favorite Number?: 13
91)Ha Ha or He He?: ahah
92) Bright or Dark?: bright... but my worlds so dark...
93) Favorite Radio Station?: 91.5 is the only one i still listen to... im so fucking tired of the same god damn clear channel playlists on every fucking radio station in the country
94)Is it a Cop or a Pig?: popo
95) If you had the chance to go on titanic knowing it would sink, would you go?: are you fucking high? really? would i get on a ship knowing damn well its going to hit an iceberg and sink and i'm going to freeze to death while i bob in the ocean hoping desperately for someone to find me? fuck no! do i look like i've got the word "cunt" on my forehead?
96) What do you think is really sexy?: stomachs, butts, eyes, uniforms, and that little "i love life" aura that some women wear on them like a blanket
97) Do you have a secret crush on anyone that you want to tell?: i don't, no
98) Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?: callaway briefly
99) If you could have 100 million dollors or love, what would you want?: reciprocated love
100)Stuff you like to do: i love to drive. i like to sleep, eat, skateboard, fuck, masterbate, play basketball, and smoke weed
100)Color Eyes: brown
102)Height: 6' or 6'1
103)Shoe Size: 11.5
104)Favorite Song: Hard to say
105) Absolute One Best Friend: i don't even know anymore
106)Most romantic thing a guy/girl has ever said to you? every time i smell a cigarette it reminds me of you... yeah... thats really not so romantic, is it?
107)Funniest or most desperate thing you've done to get the attention
of the opposite sex: im not at liberty to answer this question
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put your hands down my pants and i bet you'll feel nuts [Feb. 24th, 2007|04:40 pm]
the long pause while you come to your senses
so, after moving out of the parents house, i've developed a coupla new hobbies. the two most recent are just awe inspiring in their simplicity. i've discovered the joys of searching for midget porn on the internet. not finding it. no no. its like the god damned loch ness monster trying to find a midget porn in video format that is free. but looking for it. now thats enjoyable.

the other new hobby, which i just discovered last night, is sitting on the couch and getting stoned while watching the beauty of the disney channel. thats right, the disney channel, where the colors are bright, everyone looks like they're strung out and pumped full of happy pills, the songs all include a chorus of "happy happy fun fun" and the plots and storylines are simple. its the simple things in life. the simple things. plus it was either that or else dawsons creek. and just no.
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where is my mind? [Sep. 18th, 2006|02:26 pm]
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First Name: color me aleks
2. Middle Name: j
3. Last Name: Schutz
4. Nick name: depends who you ask. some are good, some are bad.
5. City: FUCK ORLANDO
6. Age: 22
7. Sex: je suis male
8. Birthday: 4/26
9. Astro Sign: taurus
10. Siblings: younger sister
11. Pets: azeeza my doggy
12.Hair Color: brown
13. Eye Color: brownish
14. Height: somewhere between 5'11 and 6'1
15. Hair Length: fairly short, real short my my standards. maybe an inch and a half or 2inches long. i miss the poof.
16. Do you find yourself attractive? i've got sweet abs and a nice body in general, but facially speaking i'm less than happy with my appearance
17. Are you ugly? i won't call me ugly. but i've got a crooked nose, bad skin, and shitty hair (usually)
ReLaTiOnsHiPs:
19. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: can't say i do, no
20. What is their name? Phyllis Diller
21. Are you gay? only at work
22. Who are/were your crush: wow, that question is just dripping with improper grammer.
Fashion StuFF
23. Where do you shop the most? for clothes? i don't know if i've actually bought any in like the last year.
24. Do you think your fashion is cool? I'm going to say this once, as difinitively as i possibly can. FUCK COOL, FUCK FASHION, WE'VE ALL BEEN BRAINWASHED INTO THINKING THATS WHAT ACTUALLY MATTERS. LIFE IS NOT YOUR FUCKING PRADA BAG OR YOUR GOD DAMNED GUCCI WHATEVER. GO OUT AND FUCKING DO SOMETHING, BE SOMETHING. YOU ARE NOT WHAT YOU OWN AND YOU SHOULD NEVER EVER LET IT FUCKING DEFINE YOU.
25. Do you have any piercing? nope
26. If not, what do you want pierced? i could go for a nipple probably
27. Do you have a tattoo? nope
The Extra Stuff:
18. Do you do drugs? i regularly smoke pot, fairly regularly drink, and irregularly do a buncha other shit
29. Do you drink? sometimes. when i do it trends towards excessively
30. Who are your friends? the open minded individuals who can handle my sense of humor and stories/tangeants.
31. Who is your best friend online? online? abby, come on down and take a bow.
32.What kind of Shampoo & Conditioner do you use? Pert Plus fresh ooooooo
33. What sport do you play? i haven't ridden my skateboard in about a month and its been about 3 since i played basketball. i'm dying here.
34. What are you most scared of: the other people on the road at 3 a.m. friday night/saturday morning
35. What are u listening to right now? nothing. i thought for once maybe i'd skip the music for a little while
36. Who are u talking to right now? Callaway
37. What time is it? 2:45 p.m.
38. What*s your phone number? 3212743770
39. Do you shave? just my chin. i'm a hairy manbeast and thats no lie.
40. What clothes do u sleep in? boxers if i'm cold
41. What car do u have: black 06 corolla
42. Who is the last person who called u? ummm... taurean. wanting me to find him pot.
43. If you could have 1 wish what would it be? one wish? just one? fuck. ummm. yeah, i'm just gonna go ahead and tell you i know exactly what it is and that i don't need to put it in here.
44. Who's the hottest guy/girl in your school? ugh... i forgot how old this survey is. u know i think i first did this one when i was like 16 or 17? just dug it out of retirement from some old e-mail from beth.
45. If u could change anything about yourself what would it be? i could go with being less shy.
46. Who do u really hate? clearchannel communications, brighthouse, time warner cable, ticketmaster, halliburton, george "chokes on pretzels" bush, dick "shoots his friends" chaney, and anyone else who makes life unnecessarily monochromatic, mundane, or just plane stupid.
47. Color: black and red
48. Number: 58
49. Movie: witches sabbath (its nothing but blood sacrifices and breasts. its gotta be a work of art.)
50. Candy: sour worms
51. Brand: go get pissed on
52. TV show: metalocalypse
53. Food: hamburgers. anything with beef. i crave beef.
54. Fast food restaurant: sonic/arbys
55. Girl Names: just another brand name
56. Boy Names: mehhh
57. Nail polish color: nope
58. Subject in school: n/a
59. Radio Station: 96.5 or 105.9
60 Animal: jaguars are just badass
61. CD or Tape: jesus. prodigy-fat of the land, the verve pipe-villians, nirvana-nevermind, metallica-ride the lightning. those are the only 4 cds i've listened to all the way through in the last 5 months
62. Store: bali blue
63. Scent: purple haze #5
64. Ice cream: dont care
65. Teacher: i haven't had a teacher in like 3 years
66. Game (any): beer pong
Have you Ever...
67. Smoked?: yup
68. Drank?: yup
69. Went movie hopping?: nope... really
70. Ran from the cops?: yup. several occasions
71. Gone skinny dipping? few times
72. Been In Love? define it for me and i'll tell you
73. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble? fuck that. i accept the consequences of my actions
Pick one
80. Croutons or dressing ? both
81. Shampoo or Conditioner? i'll go with the one that cleans
82. Nike or Adidas? FOR THE LAST TIME, FUCK YOUR BRAND NAMES
83. Snowboarding or Sk8boarding? i live in florida. skateboarding
84. Sk8ing or surfing? i love them both, for different reasons.
85. Apples or Bananas? bananas
86. Tacos or Burritos? burritos
87. M&Ms or Reeses pieces? butterfinger
The Final Questions.....(finally)
88. Do you like filling these out? i'm on question 88 aren't i?
89. How many people are you sending this to? posting in LJ baby
90. Who was the person who sent this to you? beth. like 5 or 6 years ago.
91. What do u think of the person who sent this to you? she's fucking gorgeous. personality wise she used to be amazing, but i haven't actually talked to her in so long that it could have completely changed and i wouldn't know.
92. Have you met any famous people? here and there. i get around a little bit.
93. Best Song Lyric: where is my mind?
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(no subject) [Aug. 14th, 2006|05:16 pm]
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if you ever want to hear the funniest sounds a human being can make, you should watch conan the barbarian and turn the sound up any time arnold opens his mouth.
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cough cough [Jul. 14th, 2006|11:00 am]
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1. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up?
a one use explosion button? shit. so many choices. maybe i'll come back to this one

2. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
Nickleback

3. Who would you really like to just punch in the face?
myself... maybe i'll do that right now

4. What is your favorite cheese?
muenster

5. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your immediate disposal. What does your dream-sandwich consist of, and does it contain the aforementioned cheese?
Roast Beef, Bacon, Thin sliced salmon and provolone cheese with onions and tomatoes

6. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie-celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once (they will never call you back).
Jessica Alba

7. You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Same rules as above. Who is it?
Jessica Simpson looks oh so temptin nick i ain't never seen an ass like that. (the rule is she's not allowed to speak)

8. Now that you've slept with two different people in a row, you seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy shit, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
i'm going to donate it to charity because i'm not allowed to have a day that good and if spend said $100, my next action would be to be paralyzed from the neck down in a freak accident involving a lawn mower, a guy on a ladder, and half a ton of cement

9. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?
Peru

10. Upon arrival to the aforementioned location, you get off the plane and discover another hundred-dollar bill. Shit! Now that you are in the new location, where are you gonna go to spend that?
a nice 5 star hotel with a bar.

11. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. "Be brand-specific" it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don't drink booze there's something you can figure out... so what's it gonna be?
Jack Daniels.

12. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
a mayan temple, where all the diseases i have an immunity to will decimate the native culture, killing them all and laying waste to an entire civilization. this is my destiny. that is where they went

13. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place?
Hey hey smoke weed every day

14. You have been given the opportunity to create the half-hour TV show of your own design. What is it called and what's the premise?
Think fear factor meets gore.com. yeah. reality television to the extreme. you could die. if you live? yeah, you get paid $10,000,000. the name? what else could it possibly be? get rich or die trying

15. What is your favorite expletive?
dammit all hell

16. One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren't really doing anything, they're just standing around your bed. What do you do?
grab a bandage and start running

17. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don't worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what's the one thing you're going to save from that blazing inferno?
lets see... my skateboards in the car. so... ummm... my car keys.

18. The Angel Of Death has descended upon you. Fortunately, the Angel Of Death is pretty cool and in a good mood, and it offers you a half-hour to do whatever you want before you bite it. Whatcha gonna do in that half-hour?
shoot myself.

19. You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be?
time manipulation/flight

20. You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?
i can't think of a thing

21. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?
life from 1996-present

22. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit... you can move to anywhere else in the world! Bitchin'! What country are you going to live in now?
yeah, i'm posting up in Costa Rica sipping margaritas on the beach

23. This question still counts even for those of you who are under age. Check it out. You have been eternally banned from every single bar in the world except for ONE. Which one is it gonna be?
since i'm in Costa Rica, i'm going to go with the sleaziest, dirtiest, scum bar in the costa rica
24. Hopefully you didn't mention this in the super-powers question.... If you did, then we'll just expand on that. Check it out... Suddenly, you have gained the ability to FLOAT!!! Whose house are you going to float to first, and be like "Dude look at me I can float!"?
huh... why would i float when i could fly? regardless, my first course of action would be to eat a bunch of food and then fly over the highway until i have to poop

25. The constant absorption of magical moonbeams mixed with the radioactive vegetables you consumed earlier have given you the ability to resurrect the dead famous-person of your choice. So which late celebrity will you bring back to life?
Dimebag Darrell

26. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn't think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back?
No One. Those who are gone? Yeah, probably for the best.

27. What's your theme song?
Jesus Don't Want me for a Sunbeam
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(no subject) [Jun. 12th, 2006|01:47 am]
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peekaboo i see you! look at you. staring at my words. ha!

i'm in the planning stages of a novel. i'll probably be posting it on here periodically as i make signifant steps through it. as of right now, its an idea, a pseudo style, vague plot. soon to come.

bought a 2006 toyota corolla. brand fucking new looks so sexy i want to rub myself in a methodical manner using the power of my right hand. yeah. i can't tell you how much astoundingly better it is to have a brand new sedan than the death machine. but i'll always have a warm place in my heart for that trembling, squeaking, disgusting, dangerous, grinding death hulk. somehow that thing managed to consistently reach 75 miles an hour and maintain speed.

and work is plotting to kill me, soul first. rat bastards.
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i hope i didn't just soil myself [Apr. 26th, 2006|03:52 am]
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[mood |draineddrained]
[music |typity type type type]

so i guess i've officially beaten the odds and my own stupidity of action and managed to survive a full year of being legally able to drink. honestly? looking back at how shitty terrible god awful a year its been, i should have spent a considerably larger portion of it drinking. i did do the responsible thing and spent most of it not drunk, which if you know me shouldn't come as any surprise, its not really my thing. but it probably wouldn't have hurt to have drank heavily an average of 3 weeks a month. cause lets face it, no matter how shitty things get, you can get shitfaced and black out and not remember how shitty things have been.

the title to this entry is a tenative title for my as yet unwritten memoirs. i think it gives valuable insite into all that is aleks.

it kind of irritates that the only thing that i actually want for my birthday is completely out of reach and a waste of my time hoping for. regardless. i wish. i wish i wish i wish and i can't stop thinking about it. and that's probably all i've got in my power to do.

i think the parents are gonna give me a gym membership and some dough towards a new car. blah and blah. i kinda want both but the new car is going to be mine come june regardless. the gym membership? great plan, looking forward to it, but blah regardless.

3rd year in a row that technically i worked on my birthday. unlike the previous two years, i'm at least going to make an attempt at having a party, but ultimately i'm fairly certain it'll attract all of maybe 10 people and i'll end up in a corner somewhere, passed out with a bottle of jack softly nestled either in between my legs or in my right hand. call me the optimist.

its been like 3 weeks since i smoked. saying no is a bitch. probably be helpful if i knew someone, anyone, who doesn't smoke. oh well. i'll get my test done with on may 5 and be back in the saddle about 10 minutes later.

and umm yeah, this is going to be the last entry available for everyone to read. sorry bout your luck. peace. i'm going to go take advantage of the birthday present that i actually need: a full nights sleep.
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because what else is there? [Apr. 6th, 2006|10:09 pm]
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A - Available: now in gibberish
A - Age: 21 for like 3 more weeks
A - Annoyance: currently? a certain manager with a butler's name

B - Best Friend: there can be only me
B - Bar: odins den
B - Birthday: 4/26

C - Crush: i kinda don't have any
C - Car: anything but the death trap
C - Cat: gotta be one of the larger ones... allergic to the small, and jaguars just kick ass


D - Dead: jesus aka kurt
D - Dad's name: eric
D - Dog: azeeza

E - Easiest person to talk to: my inner monologue is pretty tits.
E - Eggs: every morning
E - Email: 19 parts spam 1 part lj/myspace/joke of the day/skatepark skateboarding related news

F - Favorite color: i'm in a green mood
F - Food: meat. feed me meat.
F - Foreign Slang: Je suis american uneducated, parlez vous english?

G - Gummy Bears or Worms: those awesome little sour worms that have the sprinkles of goodness all over them
G - God: may very well be what you make of it.
G - Good Times: whooot!

H - Hair Color: brown
H - Height: 5'11'' or 6'... like 6'3ish if you count the hair
H - Happy: its a possibility

I - Ice Cream: cookies and cream
I - Instrument: my feet
I - Idol: ummmm.... how do i say this?

J - Jewelry: honestly i seldom notice
J - Job: pizza delivery
J - Joke: guy walked into a bar and said owww

K - Kids: potentially i suppose... i shudder to think
K - Karate: for like a year and a half
K - Kung fu: makes me think of keanu reeves

L - Longest Car Ride: Boston to Winter Park, longest break 15 minutes
L - Longest Plane Trip: orlando to nyc
L - Last Kiss: months

M - Milk Flavor: reminds me that the other day i went to the 7-11 and they had like 8 flavors of milk but no plain milk which upset me because i was buying cereal to eat like right then.
M - Mothers Name: Catherine
M - Movie Last Watched: ummmm.... slither

N - Number of Siblings: 1
N - Northern or Southern: florida doesn't count as either one
N - Name: Aleks

O - One Wish: no more debt
O - One Phobia: i dislike spiders but no fear... i guess something of a fear of heights but its not that bad
O - Other Pop: wow... just wow...

P - Parents, are they married or divorced: married
P - Part of your body you like the best: my brain
P - Part of your Personality you like best: humorosity in face of adversity

Q - Quote: "andre miller coming up short. and odom handles"- who cares the basketball commentator


R - Reason to smile: i skated today
R - Reality TV Show: search for the ultimate fighter. HIT HIM IN THE FACE! HIT HIM IN THE FACE!
R - Right or Left: right... this question shows a considerable bias towards righties. why wasn't it under l for left or right?

S - Song Last Heard: save yourself- stabbing westward
S - Season: spring/fall
S - Sex: entirely too long

T - Time you woke up: 11:47
T - Time itis now: 11:03
T - Time for bed: usually 3 or 4 or 6 a.m.

U - Unusual habit: chain drinking caffeine several times a day
U - Unfortunately: i'm doing an internet survey

V - Vegetable you hate: anything poorly prepared or reheated
V- Vegetable you love: carrots and green beans
V - View on Politics: one side is about talking shit, the other side is about talking about issues, but americans don't give a damn about anything that can't be explained in 3-5 minutes

W - Worst Habits: cigarettes
W - Wacky: sometimes i suppose
W - Weight: 164
X - X-tra special someone: william edward XVII, my pimp

Y - Year you were born: 1984
Y - Year it is now: 2006
Y - Yellow: curious george!!!
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this entry brought to you by the letter A [Mar. 28th, 2006|04:26 pm]
the long pause while you come to your senses
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Thou shall sit and thou shall spin thou shall even wife swap
Thou shall resist the Olsen Twins, thou shall not cut "Footloose"
If I were God that's what I'd do
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